heads-up the headlights

i am just trying

2010-11-08T05:35:00.000-08:00

things change.

nothing is ever permanent , except GOD.

questions keep on appearing in my mind

/.../

random blogging

/.../

i am trying to get myself back together, blogging is one of my ways to release such emotions and ease out my frustrations , i am a chatter box in real life but it's been months now that i haven't really spoken up. i have been quiet, i have been bottle-ing it all up. i need to release it, so here i am writing again. i really wanna rant a lot of stuff at the momment but for the mean time i'll just try to keep this short.

* honesty i got curioused and i ended up reading my old posts in this blog. anyway i realized its about mhine. well audrey. its been almost 2 years since we broke up right? well she's happy and i am too. i am happy for them that is all.*

back to my random post.

the span of my life since i last wrote in this blog well ahmm. let's see. i am in college now 2ndyear in UST. status : SINGLE, YET IT'S REALLY COMPLICATED.

ICE - is almost about to come to town :)

excited yet scared

BANG- im trying to understand the gravity of the situation

its the 9th tomorrow so, let's see..

TILL HERE MUNA.

need rest na ..

BE BACK TO EDIT

its been a long time since i have been here

2009-03-13T16:25:00.001-07:00

well my multiply blog account is the one active over this one.

im ma post something na maayos later if time would allow.hmm.

well thats all bye for now ;)

--im back here :)) -- happpy :))

2008-12-27T07:56:00.000-08:00

i know ill be fine :) as long as i have these people :)

i dont have to pretend and be something that i am not :) because they care and SHE CARES :)

my bestfriend in the whole wide world :) the one that can understand :) and we likey :)

FOREVER BONATONGS :) thank you :) kung wla kayo wala dn ako :) love you GUYS :)

i missed bloggin here :) uh well bcause it gives me the freedom to create or post in the middle :))like this :) uhmmm well i am goood :)) hahahah

even though people keep on saying that i am not :)

i AM ENOUGH though YOU keep ranting that i am NOT :)

SHE CHOSE ME even though YOU say SHE DIDNT :) why do you think SHE's with me? :))

dont be bitter :) ive learned :) now u have to learn yourself what your doing aint gonna work you see speaking from experience i already did what your doing so it didnt work at all. it just made things worse. didnt you see i changed my ways and now look where i am? i am a happy married individual with MY MHINE :) not URS. sorry.

you screwed up urself, i admit that i did screw up a lot before but i really did change, she knows it herself. i have proven that little by little and will still continue to prove it so YOU PISSED OFF in OUR LIFE. thank you ;) that would be pretty much appreciated :)

bug OFF my CLAssMATES you KNOW NOTHING of what they can do to you :)

BATANG MEH LABAN KEA KAME :)) BONATONGS EHH :)) hahhaah

love my classmates. i BELONG. :)

i love my WIFE . ALWAYS AND FOREVER MORE
I WILL BE YOUR MAN :)

HAPPY 2ND ANNIVERSARY TO YOU BABE :) MUAH
HUBBY LOVES YOU :))

WE DONT CARE WHAT THE WORLD THINKS BECAUSE THE WORLD KNOWS NOTHING OF WHAT WE REALLY FEEL :) muah.

KEEP ON KEEPING ON and

KEEP MOVING FORWARD :)

taking our steps to our FOREVERMORE :) and

FOREVER ISNT SPELLED

F-O-U-R EVER

its spelled

FOREVER MORE :)) hahahah

dont be stupid :))

PEACE!!

Breathing

2008-10-28T02:48:00.000-07:00

please pray for my auntie's soul she died due to cancer of the lungs :( thank you. she's my mom's cousin. that's all.
-->i would like to send my sincere apology to MS.KATRINA UY-BARRETTA for what happend today over which i couldnt/didnt make it to myONE on ONE session with tito wenzel?wencel?
i am really sorry tina as u can see i am in a more personal matter. i do hope you understand :(

--> people killin people dying children hurting hear them crying can you practice what you preached would you turn the other cheeK?<---

thats all.im not feeeling GOOD AT ALL.

I AM CHANGING :(

the heart decides

2008-10-24T03:07:00.000-07:00

RELYING DEPENDING ON NO ONE.

i cant go on without you :(

--walker alam moh kung sno toh--

i remember you sat and told me about ur jesus :(

--walker ! :((--

its one of those moments where the planets in ur head align in order for you to think clearly.

GEN-re kanina :D : labooneess :) hehehehe

cheereed alOT :) SAYA nga EHH :)) kea lang nakaaaaakaaaaantok sensha

i really have nothing to say

this past week has been very tiring for all theresians for the sake of the DANCE PRODUCTION.

well i amREALLY TIRED :)) hehehe muchh mucchhh of SOMETHING ELSE.

its not REALLY YOU its THEM and US.

Its HER.-- > IM SORRY<---

but not the HER of TODAY.

its the HER of BEFORE TODAY.

yes I DONT KNOW ANYTHING ANYMORE.

all i know is I WANT THINGS TO BE AS WHAT THEY WERE BEFORE.

BEFORE I MET YOU.(HER B4)

COZ noW i still shed a lot of tears for the disappointment

for the WHAT IF's. WHAT MIGHT HAVE BEEN's

im still asking my self why?

why like this now?

its over db?

BAKIT GANITO PA DN KA SAKIT?

BAKIT ?

YOUR MY BIGGEST REGRET AS I AM YOURS

COZ u seem TO HURT me NO MATTER WHAT.

though its wrong

it is what it is

my wife right now i am sorry if your reading this.i dont mean to be hurt i just am thinking a lot.

i am sorry. i will sort it out. from now. 3 days to go.

i AM SORRY :((

friends to lovers to foes to friends again maybe?...hopefully

2008-09-06T21:46:00.000-07:00

things are shit

i want things to be fine with me and you

but uve really closed ur doors on me

u changed the locks over which i know how to open

ever since you left me

since u left me ive been a wanderer

ive been avoiding confrontation

ive been avoiding the fact that i want things to be ok with you

im not after you

not after you so that we can be what we were before

it can never be like that ever again and i know that

im running after you as a friend

can we just stop for a while and just talk about things

silly silly me, why do i always wanna make things ok with you

why do i stll try

havent u humilated me enough?

havent u already destroyed the walls that keep me standin?

im asking my self now why the HELL am i EVEN TRYING

after a year of us being together

its really not that hard to get over it

its worth trying to be friends, i hope u reconsider

i miss you as a friend

i miss talking to u without hesitation

ive looved u

with all that i have

I miss YOU :(

sept 05

2008-09-05T09:03:00.000-07:00

honestly i was suppose to write about our monthsary todei but things went , how will i say it uhmm
i looked back at today and i realized somthing my day was mostly about
someone else...

ist about a ghost that never went away...
part of the past that i dont ever want to let go or fade away...
but i guess its time its finally time to move on and leave it that way...
because now im thinking what if i had fought for it, will things be the same?

i miss that person so much, coz for me SHE was the CLOSESt To PERFECTION
i told my friend today that i still like you and everything
i told my friend that i miss everything what we used to be despite everything
i miss you soo much the ghost that never went away...

since u left me i am stupid enough to even think of waiting and hoping
i am stupid really stupid coz it hurts so much that things didnt work out.
i really just wanna let this out coz i cant even tell you these things
coz were not anymore anything, ur not even my friend anymore.

yes we talk and jowk smtimes, but the distant and the promise that i thought u'd suffice
i thought u keep ur promises, i really thought wrong didnt i?
and i write this blog tears wont stop running down my cheeks
so hard to reveal all these but its been silently killing me inside

and if u have a chance to read this
know that i am happy for you coz uve found what uve been looking for
but u cant blame a gurl for hoping that u could have found it her whatever it was that u were looking for.
im already taken as u are now though u tend to not expose it.

i am happy where i am though u dont give a sh*t about me
hope we get back to the way things were even as a close friend of urs
i miss my place in ur world, coz i told you before u DAMN MATTER to ME and YOU KNOW IT!
u keep on manipulating me and hurting me in ways u dont know

its hard to accept the truth when its not me and you
really awkward to see you with ...
but i guess its whats meant to be
and really i am happy for you. dont mind these tears its nothing i promise you :'(

*casper*
the unfriendly ghost
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mhine im sorry about the post.you know the reasOn why i posted this.
it just reaally hurts
and u know who casper is and its not my EX ok?
its noone of my EX's

happyy OPYB mHINe!
iloveyou
IM URS

holdin on to you. MUAH.hugs tulog na kO:) MUAH

haiiiiiiiiiiiiiiii

--you said u'd tell me--

todeii is 09-04-08

2008-09-04T04:11:00.000-07:00

hmmmmmm what did i do todey?:))
hmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmm

sHort cut tO evrything!!

--------------------> TiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRiiiiiiiiinnnnnnnnnnnnnnnGGGGGGGGGGGGGG

PERIOD .

--editn lang pag trip nA :) pagod tlga ako ehh--

senior ako ehh my gosh

2008-09-01T04:01:00.000-07:00

..fourth year b ko? what a title ehh db?>.<
kc nmn ehh super d ko tlga ramdam ehh.
actually THE PRESSURE is HERE and ITS ON US sa lahat ng FOURTHYEARS we can DO iT! YEAH!
sguro nmn nkta n nting lahat ang SKED natin db?..mga UPCAT TESSTS at iba iba pang EXTRA CURRICULAR ACTTIVVITIESS! waaaaa...

super waw ang dame :)) hehehe

--monologo sa pinoiii is
me and ryle :) i dOnt know WHo i AM :)) heheeh

--monologue sa ENGLISh
is me only :)) im ZEUS

today is sept1.08 Suuper waw ehh :))

hmmm
pumasok ako ng LUNCH :)) funneh!
then hmmm :))

pinoi next subject namen ehh
hmmm MPR A ata un una then lipat kame sa MRP B or
other way around bsta aun

hmmm
what else next was
ENGLISH :))
hmm nagbunutan sa number to knw ur god or goddess aun shIT :))
una kc ako sI HERCULES :)) hehhhhh
tapos gsto ko mkipagpalitan kea aun
hmmm
si joey si ZEUS ehh

then
nagpalit kame pero baGo naging FINAL ang EXCHANGE nmeng dlwa nagkaroon muna ng PROLONGNESS :)) hehehe aun
then ok n :) nag swap swap mga tao nung P6 nung 2 periods ng P6 :)) ok
meh mga nagdala p nga ng mythOlogY book ehh :))

isa ko dun EHEHEHE! adik muchhh hmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmm
what else
uwian.

sabay sha sa bus then
what else?
nagpnta kameng dlwa crossings at national bookstore q.ave then
nkita nmen mom ko.un. then
aii before that
sa ano sa uhmmmmmm BILIHAN ng BALLPEN sa NATIONAL
meh
MASANGKAY G. aun :))

meaning nun para samen ehh ung ex namen :))
si MASANGKAY at si GEN :)) hehe
kea MASANGKAY G.
peace duns a totoong tao kung sno man un :))

then

hmmmm
hmmmmmmm
wla lang yieeeeeee

kinikilig siguro asawa ko sa pagbabsa nitoh :))kc meh MASANGKAY EHH :))shit!
heheheheeh
fuck!
hmmmmmmmmmmmmm ok
puro MURA n tama na!!
heehhe
let it go!!
heheeheheeheh

hmmmmmm kita ko ex ko kanina sa national ung ex kong taga st.mary's eheheh :)) shIT

ehehehehehhe WEIRD!!
wala n ko masabe
meh HW kame sa trigo pero wla ggwa ehh aun

soo
uhmmm
nu p b ???
SARAP ng DINNER ko! :))
HYPER ako NA EWAN bsta MAGULO!!

hehehehe
SMILE :)) LIVE LOVE LAUGH :))
me likeeyy the picture but me cant haveeeyyy hmmpfff unlesss sa dec.27 susuway ako at sa gmick nmen ng insans ko :) hehehe BAD BAD BAD MEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEE hErE WE Go AGAIN!! i caannot RESIST u

last movie i saw issss

FOR THE FIRST TIME
CORNYY yeah but niCE :))

wla lang :))

geh tiLL here

LAPET na BDAY ng IBBANG NILALALANG JAN SA TABE TABE

TINA.STEPPI

august 27 2008

2008-08-27T04:30:00.000-07:00

[Plies: talkin]

Ay can I please talk to my BUST IT BABIES real quick homie, Let me bring you in my world (plies) and Let you know what I call a bust it baby

Chorus: Ne-Yo]

She got me speedin in the fast lane, Pedal to the floor mane, tryna get back to her love... Best believe she got that good thang, She my lil hood thang, ask around they know us... They kno that's my (BUSST IT) Baybayy... Evrybody know that's my (BUSST IT) Baybayy... EVrybody know that's my...

Verse 1: Plies]

If I wasn't married to the streets, it would be you Your lips, what make you so cute Love when you poke yo mouth when u mad to, Save yo nemba in muh fone under lil boo Like yo sex, but In more love with wat u do, Turn me on how you stare at me when we thru When you give it to me, I don't wanna turn ya loose Scared to moan round ya, so all I could say is ooh My favorite panties uh yours, are tha ones that see thru One with da pink trim on em, and they light blue Speakin for da goons, thank god fo makin u BUSST IT BABY, is what I call u

[Chorus: Ne-Yo]

Verse 2: Ne-Yo]

Yea Yea... (so now), They say he's an entertainer, (slow down) Your just one more, (he don't respect you) He just gon hurt you and neglect you Well let em say what they wanna (yeaa) I made a promise (yeaa), To do you right and I'm gonna (heyy) Girl i do everything I can, To prove I'm a betta man, Than ya friends think I am...

[Chorus: Ne-Yo]

[Verse 3: Plies]

I jus gave her a nickname, it's wet-wet, Cause when we finish, she mess up all my bed set She got sum to relax me when I'm under stress, Neva told her, or let her kno, but she da best She like to spell her name with her tounge on my chest, If you wuda told me it was dis gud, I wud neva guessed She full o surprises, I dont kno what shell do next But while she sleep, I'll sneak and put hickes on her neck And when she go, she shut down the hole set, Love to see her in heels, with da slit in her dress She like to do her own hair, get her own checks, My BUSST IT BABY, I keep her on deck

[Chorus: Ne-Yo]

She got me speedin in the fast lane, Pedal to the floor mane, tryna get bak to her love... Best believe she got that good thang, She my lil hood thing, ask around they know us... They kno that's my (BUSST IT) Baybayy... Everybody know that's my (BUSST IT) Baybayy... Everybody know that's my

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currently addicted to it :)heheehehe
slooww ko b?:))
tagal ko na d nag OL sa BLOG :)) hmm wla lang
nothing interesting at all

tapos na NCAE namen :)) wla lang
morning aga ko nagicng :)
mga 4 am aun

nagtxt ako sa kanila nag GM ako hehehe tapos nagreply sha :)) sbe nya nagcng lang daw sya :))
hehehe

hmmm tapos nag txt dn si jambee aun
hmm wla lang :))

meh tinext ako nung umaga dn aun lang
hmm.. 27 ngeon hmm 3-4months since we broke up.
well hmm wla lang :) just remembering old times :))
NO WORRIES okay?

im happy already she my little hood thang :)) hehehe shit
MY WET WET aii :)) hehehe yieee

im trying to go back to UR LOVE MHINE i aREALLY am :)
im just quiet i dunno why. i know me namn ehh
when im quieet smthings up well this time i guess i really have nothing to say anymore im already happy with you gurl. contented and happy

alam ng mga options ko un, snbe ko n dn na wla silang mahiihintay sakn at wala tlagang chance. u are enough as i am enough for you as u said. hmmm.. wla lang.. drama kc ng hapon natin ehh eheheeh

EX MOH kc ehh AHAHAH infairness TALO EX MOH sa EX KONG 27 :)) panaLO mas maganda un!HEHEEH
hmm what else?hmmm

trying to get back to her love :))

uhmm pnta school jeep lang kame hangang d.tuazon then nagtaxi papntang school kc epal ehh la JEEP tGAL :)) heheeheheh sinabay na namen si KHRIZZIA aun tama kea spelling? hmmm sorry kung hndi then

pnta skuL pnta classrroom then kita ko maJEN and celina and mitch heheeh un..
meh pinapanuod sakn si magJEN ehehehe SUPER JUNIORS :)) d ako makaget oVER:))

tapos exams na tapos ahaah RECESS :) magkasama
ako MAGEN celina TINA
yahnn:))

nako tlga EPAL YANG KIKO na yaN! CELINA dn PAM PAM ahmpf! :)) nako twanan daw b ko?!!!
napahiya ako keh tina! hppff!! kc nmn ehhh ASIM tlga KIKO!! :)) never LOOK at me when me DRINK KIKO :)) hehehehe

then EXAMS ULIT then LUNCH shit ehh

dame ko DLA PUDD :)) heheeh
nauna pa ko natapos keh CELINA at TINA :)) hehehe
hmm thats about the day nmn ehh

then uhmm EXAMS uliT:)) then
UWIAN
then COVERED COURT then
COLDNESS** then

MCDO then more coldness**
then
BADTRIP and SHOOCKENESS**
then

LABONESS AND EMONESSS**
konti n lang COLDNEESSS ko**
then

sweett little INTERVALS bitin sha IM SURE :)) heehheehhehe
well then

uwe ako then

GREEET ko dad ko ng HAPPYY BDAY! :)) heehehheehe
62th bday n nya! :)) tANdaaAA na!! :)) shIT

WTF ?? :))
then

mama and i went to the ROBNSONS and made GROCERIES :)) then
went to savory to buy food :)) hehehe CHICKEN and PANSIT :)) doiii
hnnnmmmmmm

what else me went to KOREAN STORE bought GHANA :)) lovelovelovelove sarap tlga:)) heheeh
saw a cute korean boy :)) heheehe talked to a korean chick :)) damn! nice tlga sa RobINsons :)) ganda nya! aiii eeheheheheh fav word at the momment

sbe nung gurl "its ok"
heheeh :))

wla lang:) and now COMP na ko At nag POST
after suuch along long timE :)) heheeh

try ko tlga na everyday or everyother day pero im sure hndi tlga kaia :)) heheheheheeh
d na ko madaldaL ehh SHIT :)) heheheeh

mejo nagiging CLOSED boOOk nako AwwwwwHEHEHE
shit!
heheheehehe

LOVEMHINE
--27imissyou--
--05 iloveyou ok?--

today. 08-14-08.today

2008-08-14T03:15:00.000-07:00

since i guess im obligated to update this blog everyday or everyother day as said by our CWJ coach ms.calero :)

my day began when i woke up :) well actually i wanna start from tuesday :)

*meh isa jan uhmmm TINULUGAN LANG AKO KAGABE haisT! :(( *

wennt home after the examm in Soc.Sci or ECO. bummerr really well thats all :)

then didnt make it to school yesterday that was uhh wednesday reason? its a SECRET hehe but im OKHAAYYy nOW :) well thats it.

uhh..my day rested yesterday when me and my nephew were fighting over what to watch in the damn dvd playah. she wanted to watch BARNEY and DAMMIT i dont like BARNEY! barbIe was BRAVELY what i wanted to watch! because the only cd's or dvd's in her bag was or were

*BARBIE*

*BARNEY*

*Hi5*

*WALL-E*

*hORToN*

*prIncES DIarIEs*

*ENchAnTeD*

and

*little einstein*

hahahah i really wanted to throw those cd's away. haha one funny thing though we watched WALL-E on the 12th but the showing was supposed to be the 13th, meaning i got to watch it before the showing it self and i really cant get over it.

im a little bit shallow i admit. sorry cant change that mate'

shocking as ever im currently reading the book P.S. I love you by cecelia ahern

hope i got the author correct.

i haven't been connected with the book world
uhh currently raining in our place and were gonna have our palihan tomowow :)

just sent a message to people in ym to describe me to be put to my blog right here these are there answers :)

*walker- IRMA AN ALIEN! and INLOVE.*

*tina-MAKULIT and EASY TO BE AROUND*

*hugga bubba-IRMA. MABAET YAN. ALWAYS MAKES YOU SMILE EXCEPT PAG SHA AI WALA SA MOOD. LOVES HER MHINE. BSTA MABAET*

*kaye C. - friendly*

*achiee-mabaeet*

*blue addict- romantic*

*MHiNE- sweet, thoughtFUL,caring, giving, very loving in an emotional and physical way, babyish in a cute way, great singer, sobrang kulet, protective, possessive in a GOOD way,fragile and vulnerable but strong at the same time and MARRIED. *

--hehehe..waw.. ehhh.. :)) LAB LAB :)) 05 mHInE--

tats all for now. uhhh

just updating kc ung si walker ehh update daw :))hehe JOWK

hehh

uhh wla lang GEh la pa me MOOD kc magSULAT ehh aii wehh eheh :))

geh3

LATER

..darknight..

2008-07-22T04:19:00.000-07:00

yes, i have watched "the"DARK NIGHT where mr.Ledger is in

im not sure what the spelling is so what the hell , anyways what is up todey uhmm. nothing much really it was OK but NOT. im fine and yet im NOT. its complicated trust me. specially tonyt its a DARK NIGHT.

the day went like this

*bus

--> cold.songs.cold

*gate7 going to class with ekay.

--> we strolled together going to the class. talked a bit. walked some more. i saw her in gate seven thats why i ended up with her going to class.it was fun.

*classroom

-->i thought she was there already well she wasnt thought id go down to her room but she aint there. saw kedu walking along and tagged along with her to the stationery to buy her mask and gloves for their bio. are they disecting already?.hmm..

then went back to the classroom and i saw her waiting there. "nagkasalisi kame" im sure of it.

(today is the first day im not with her in recess and lunch.and yeah it is HARD)

hugged her and made her feel secured that i wont go away and yes mhine i wont ok?

what else hmm..

*flagceremony

--> uhmm she was the prayer leader, WELL her pa ehh she speaks good english but is poor in grammar like me:) hehehhe

/walang kokontra!/

*ist period-2nd period = COMPUTER

-->my GHAD! heheeh me LIKEYY HTMLyy!: ) heehe bOMAlBS:) heheh it was FUN and yet it was exhausting in a way from all the typing and im not used to the keyboard it made it so hard for me or i guess for most of us to type. i dunno bout the others but it was reaally hard for me:

the schedule of the SAMPAGUITA class they have many RECESSESS:)) heheheeh

RECESSESS!! wTF?! WELL

*recess

--> erine and nikola went to class to get me then what else uhmm yackee tagged along with us so its 3 firstyears and 1 fourthyear. my GHAD! hehehe.nothing happen much. uhmm

i hurt her i think? or she felt bad because she saw us together and waa i didnt want that to happen at aLL.

Bad Kc HER ehh she wanted to go that way. hmpff ! :(

sorry! :( hmpf her >:[

*3rd period- 4th period = ELECTIVE

-->there is this CRAZY chick from the FIRST YEARS well she ASKED ALOT of QUESTIONS about what the SPEAKER is TALKING ABOUT. well basically she talked about HTML and BLOGGING mostly. which we have learned from sir E.T. from COMPUTER.

what else? uhh the venue was in the IMC.*

---------TILL HERE LANG THIS POST---------------

i think this was the night where my tita died thatts why i didnt finish and stopped updating and writting for days..

..day..today...fun tlga uwian then not anymore.

2008-07-16T06:13:00.000-07:00

ok posting time :)
hahaah after ilang days nasa mood nko magpost :)

hmm..the day was...
let us see

*umaga sa bus
--> wla ung katabe ko si nikola absent daw sha kc feel lang nya.
so hndi ako happy nun kc wla ako katabe pero natuwa ako kc nasa window ako uupo! shit namiss ko kc na sa window ehh para makapagreflect bago pumasok.masama b ko?sorry ahh.selfish muchh?

*flag ceremony
--> wla hmm..pnta ko sa classrum ni mhine. habang meh gngwa sha nakaupo lang ako sa floor.habang sa labas ehh meh na aaninag akong tao, but i remained calm coz i didnt wanna make a scene. then nag warning bell bad tlga! warning bell ehehehe..then we kissed..BEH! mainggit keO! ehehhe tapos akyat n ko sa pila ko.. pila time.. umuulan db?so sa class tau db?
hehehe iniiicip ng LAHAT na SUSPENDED! shet bkt hndi nasuspend?! heheheeh.. kumanta kame ni celina ng PHILIPPINE ANTHEM malmang :)hehehehehe

*homeroom
-->nothing much, after naman ng homeroom habang wla pa si sir z , nangolekta na para sa "classfund"aun.then reminders and all..mostly mukhang wla sa mood ang lahat kc antok or wla lang tlga sa mood.wla ako masyadong maalala!bkt ganuN!?:))

*ist period
-->nabingo ako ni sir kc daw ang lakas ko daw mag "OWHS" eheheh tapos tinannong nya ko ng tanong ehh kulang notes ko kea hndi ko nasagot.bawi n lang ako bukas :) tapos d dn ako masyado nakinig kc i was writing at a yellow index card back2back pa un ahh.. :)) pero nung bago matapos ung period ni sir nakinig nmn ako noh..heheh tapos si celina ang kulit :))heheheheh

*2nd period
-->MPR B ang venue namen. and i didnt pay much attention kc nga tinatry ko tapusin ung yellow index card na back2back.hehehe. and shockingly natapos ko sha bago magrecess ;)ehehhe
then what else nagnotes ako nun noh at tahimik ako nun kc hirap daw si sir magsalita kc malakas ang ulan and he cant compete with the sound outside dw.well un pagkaintindi ko sa snabe nyang intro bago magstart ung lesson nmn.hmm..then..gutom nakame nila celina at nagtatanong na ng oras si pam roque sa likod. classroom arrangement nga pala kame. tapos nag bell na pero masyado atang enclosed si sir sa knyang lesson at napatagal kame ng ilang minuto lan nmn :)
sirr ok lang un! bute d nyo kame ginutom!heheheheh

*recess
-->kasama si mhine.ju.pua. aun lang nmn..tapos meh nalaman.nagisip na at aun..patay na..heheh pero na worry lang nmn ako i didnt dwell on it yet at that time knina..HH kame ehh at extrajoss mode kame nun.*kissed again*

*3rd period-4th period
naglaro kame ng BAHAY.TAO.BAGYO! eheheh CORNY sha SOBRA pero FUNN!! db?for2 ! hehe kami ni crisseli at geri na tao ehh naging bahay bigla!.naka partner ni tina si trixie. si sam keh mimax aun bsta kalat kalat.ehehehe naging ka partner ko nga si miss ehh eheheh tapos si tina dn.hehehe.si celina dn ehehe :)) bsta tapos sa bandang ending ehh 9 kame kea samen n lang nagrotate mostly ung game eheheheeh d na kame nagexplore sa ibang world kc kanya knyang world nun ehh :)) then nag DOODLE kame sa COUPON BOND! ahahaah out of my DOODLe naka BUO ako ng ULO ni WINNIE THE POOH. ni BATMAN.ni DEEDEE sa dexters laboratory.
nakabuo dn ako ng HEART.ng CLOUDS, ng SHARK, ng FLOWER, ng half na katwan ng tao with the whole HEAD and my isang taga TEEN TITANS dun ung shapeshifter! eheheh ung color GREEN ehehe :)) astig ehh sbe nga nila puro daw cartoons ung nakita ko heheeh :))

*5th period
--> sinagutan ung HW at nagSEATWORK.kinapalan ang mukha ko at nagTANONg keh miss bout sa lesson at nagets ko naman sha ! wohooo kc nmn ehh nagtanong ako :) heheheeh..ok sobrang la kwnta p6 aii kumakanta pala si CELINA nung sa LION kiNG ehehehe kea d ako msyado makapagcontentrate eheheh :)) grabehh ang HYPER ni CELINA tuwing UMUULAN. heheheheheheheh..laughtrip tlga!

*lunch
--> uhmm i dwelt on the matter for my self only it made things un easy for mhine and me. we were with ju and pua again.si ju ang binili aii SKYFLAKEs pero naki subo sa food ni mhine ko. tapos si pua ang kinaen aii burger ng JABeee..aun..ako meh baong EGG.pero d ko dn nakaen kc nwlan ako ng gana kakaisip and i really literally wasnt feeling well nmn ehh..ayown..then meh practice/meeting kame for pinoi and my group knows na kameni mhine . at naaliw sila sa lettering ni mhine kea nagpagwa si SAM at JACKy keh Mhine ko.aun. then nagwarning bell na. NANAMAN ehh! haist ehh..hmpf.. *kissed* again.

*6th-7th Period <3go>
--> waw EHH ang HYPER tlga ni CELINA! at nagpakapalan kame ng MUKS keh sir VILORIA! hehehe kc d nmn gets kea aun nagtanon kame then na gets nnmn tapos naaliw n kame ulit then ang HYPER parin ni CELINA! ahahah sUPEr LAUGH triP ehh! ehehhehe..aii celina if ur reading asan ung DOMAIN and RANGE!? ehehehehe :)) shit!! im sure ur LAUGHING. haii..grabeh d ako makahinga nun! hahaha :)) kakatawa! aii nautot ata si celina nun ehh :)) db? eheheheheeh

*8th period
--> kabado kc baka umabot ung grrouuuup namen aun..group nila ninibeth and nagpresent ng UNANG HIRIT at group nila JOEY ung kumanta nmn aun..24/25 at 25/25 ata ung scores nila ehh :) sobrang aliw ung presentation nila kc nung kela ninibeth unang tanong palang talo na ko! out na kumbaga! aahahah ung kela joey nmn aliw kc duh si joey sa beatbox si clang, bea at tina sa guitar. sila belo.jo.dior.cay.? un..un lang naaalala ko sa group nila sorry poh sa mga hndi na banggit aun..memory gap.heheh :)) shits heheeh..aun.galing nyo kumanta! aLIW! galing tlga wohooooooooo ehehhehhe..nahyhyper ako..grabehh! aii muntik ko ng makalimutan.si ms gino pala ai sinisinok :)hehehe un lang.

*UWIAN*
-->venue coveredcourt..mhine and me..then..mhine went training..but before that.. *KISS* and hUG and upuan ako :) ehhheeheh ... i bit her back :) heheheh beh! hehehe;)) wla lang..aliw lang ako..then.. start n sha dun sa aun..but KYNA and RISA came in and weLL :) saved me :) hehehe
they noticed im feverish again.sus risa tlga napapnsn ang lahaT! ahahah..si kyna nmn CONCERN nnmn ahahha :)) ang mga TATAY ko tlga aii sobrang CONCERN :)) hmmm..nako naging mejo seryoso usapan nmen magAAMA then cara came with bea and mamel. ahahah..naiyak kea ako nung mkita ko si cara:)) hehehe nkakhiya kc nmn ehh..db kyna? eheheh heheheh..waw ehh sana mabasa moh toh :) hehehe..SCAREd ako ehh db?:) muah..heheh risa PICTURE MODE. si cara ang lalim ng iniisip sus DAD ako lang un ehh :) heheheh :)) adiiik much?? yah!! eheheh..
ung CP ni mhine asakin pati JACKET at NECKLACE when she TRAINED aun. loveYOU mHINE. shre lang;) hmmm.. then i cried at kyna and risa :)) bout things db? hehehe..then got lots of hugs from them kc wla lang thats was all i needed aun :) ahaahh :)) lots of It! ehehehe..

grabeh then 4pm na.so me have to hatid my fathers sa gate 7.. aun..me paige.mamel.beyiia. cara.kyna.risa went to gate 7. heheheh. i told a 2ndyear bus mate to tell the service to take my bag home aun..then.. tambay kame ni paige sa court andun si TERs aun.nagusap kame..nagJOWK nila lecky and paige. sugar and ters..aun.. FISHBALL eheheh :)) pisaT ehee waw ehh dame sa FISH :) heheheh or PISH eheheheh...then time to go hOme na

me and ters made sabay go out then to gate 3 so we went there then i bummpt to ERINE and HER DAD :) si sir FRANCIS :) wOHooo 40 n pala sha :) d sha mukhang 40 mukha shang 20+ heheh :)) jowk corny mga 30+ nmn! :)) heheheh.. sht ehh..then..naksabay nako sakanila kc sir insisted ehh :)) ok SHET eheheh :)) tapos sa HARAP ako sa tabe ng DRIVERS SEAT katabe si ERINE wohoooo:)) hehehe kilig much! heheheh nako tpos nagkantahan kame at nangtrip ng mga tao sa KALYE! whooohooo..:)) si sir tlga kanina..nakakatawa ang KORNY ehehe :)) waw ehh SIR n tlga twg ko ehh tapos naka ILANG HANDSHAKE kaME ?? :)) heheheh..yieee!! sir maGUUPLOAD ng PICS! eheeh :)) shinare nya kanina :)) hehehe..tapos wla lang ERINE gO! ehehehheheh..adikk tlga si ERINE:)) kulit s KOTCHE! eheheh..yaman nila ! wohOOoo!!
ghad ! eheheh still cant get over it! db eriNE!?

SONNGGGEEERR daw ako sabe ng DAD ni ERINE ..sir HNDI poh SONNGER singer poh :) heheheeheh waw ehh parang nabasa nyo poh toh ehh noh :)
heehhe
saturday trinoma :) sna magkakitaan nga :)..galing ni sir kumanta ng ALWAYS be my BABY ehehe :)) woohoooo KILIG!! :))

un lang.. nako tapos nasira na hapon ko nung paguwe ko..haii..kc namn ung sERviCe ehh hinuli ung bag ko ayahn tuloy napuruhan ako ng dad ko.gia.atchiee at walker and nadine ang meh alam ng storya nyan.hmm..shh n lang..mhine ok lang ako..kaia p nmn ehh..:) i cant feel a thing though my eyes says otherwise.. pakshit si papa ehh..sory poh.nag alala ka pa mhine..

ON SATURDAY meh DATE ako WITH MHINE Ko.:)

mhine ahh wag selos pagnabasa moh ung ending ntoh..hndi kame pde nun matandaa na un at anak nya si ERINE hELoo!! ok k lang!? d ako ganun nOH! eheheheeh..at KAW lang LOVE ko noh! mHINE ko.hndi audy nya..sus YACK! heheh CHEAP aHH!!..AUDX kasi sha ehh..kc meh X factor shang wla sa IBA! :) loveyou mhine!..

--till here n muna..--nextim n lang ulit..
hehehehheh..

d ako marunong gumawa ng SONNET para sa ELECTIVE namen BUKAS.
17 n bukas! atengco day :)) heheeh CORNY! WLA LANG naalala kolang si sir ATENGCO ;P

ingats lahat.nyt3
thanks sa pagbasa dont forget to leave a COMMENT

much love
muah

MHINE is MHINES
NO ONE ELSE'S

..waww eehh FOURTH b ko!?... ZEUS and ALL

2008-07-11T06:39:00.000-07:00

..fourth year b ko? what a title ehh db?>.<

kc nmn ehh super d ko tlga ramdam ehh.

actually THE PRESSURE is HERE and ITS ON US sa lahat ng FOURTHYEARS we can DO iT! YEAH!

sguro nmn nkta n nting lahat ang SKED natin db?..mga UPCAT TESSTS at iba iba pang EXTRA CURRICULAR ACTTIVVITIESS! waaaaa...

super waw ang dame :)) hehehe

--monologo sa pinoiii is

me and ryle :) i dOnt know WHo i AM :)) heheeh

--monologue sa ENGLISh

is me only :)) im ZEUS

today is sept1.08 Suuper waw ehh :))

hmmm

pumasok ako ng LUNCH :)) funneh!

then hmmm :))

pinoi next subject namen ehh

hmmm MPR A ata un una then lipat kame sa MRP B or

other way around bsta aun

hmmm

what else next was

ENGLISH :))

hmm nagbunutan sa number to knw ur god or goddess aun shIT :))

una kc ako sI HERCULES :)) hehhhhh

tapos gsto ko mkipagpalitan kea aun

hmmm

si joey si ZEUS ehh

then

nagpalit kame pero baGo naging FINAL ang EXCHANGE nmeng dlwa nagkaroon muna ng PROLONGNESS :)) hehehe aun

then ok n :) nag swap swap mga tao nung P6 nung 2 periods ng P6 :)) ok

meh mga nagdala p nga ng mythOlogY book ehh :))

isa ko dun EHEHEHE! adik muchhh hmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmm

what else

uwian.

sabay sha sa bus then

what else?

nagpnta kameng dlwa crossings at national bookstore q.ave then

nkita nmen mom ko.un. then

aii before that

sa ano sa uhmmmmmm BILIHAN ng BALLPEN sa NATIONAL

meh

MASANGKAY G. aun :))

meaning nun para samen ehh ung ex namen :))

si MASANGKAY at si GEN :)) hehe

kea MASANGKAY G.

peace duns a totoong tao kung sno man un :))

then

hmmmm

hmmmmmmm

wla lang yieeeeeee

kinikilig siguro asawa ko sa pagbabsa nitoh :))kc meh MASANGKAY EHH :))shit!

heheheheeh

fuck!

hmmmmmmmmmmmmm ok

puro MURA n tama na!!

heehhe

let it go!!

heheeheheeheh

hmmmmmm kita ko ex ko kanina sa national ung ex kong taga st.mary's eheheh :)) shIT

ehehehehehhe WEIRD!!

wala n ko masabe

meh HW kame sa trigo pero wla ggwa ehh aun

soo

uhmmm

nu p b ???

SARAP ng DINNER ko! :))

HYPER ako NA EWAN bsta MAGULO!!

hehehehe

SMILE :)) LIVE LOVE LAUGH :))

me likeeyy the picture but me cant haveeeyyy hmmpfff unlesss sa dec.27 susuway ako at sa gmick nmen ng insans ko :) hehehe BAD BAD BAD MEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEE

hErE WE Go AGAIN!! i caannot RESIST u

past days of things..

2008-07-07T05:44:00.000-07:00

:) hmm..let us see..

-- here is the much awaited post by WALKER :) and some PEOPLE who are really waiting :)

this post will be a bit confusing :) EHEHEH kea gUdlack sa mga magbabasa :P TAGLISH toh kea sORry.

lastweek the most MEMORABLE day was FRIDAY.

LUNCH/STAIRS DUGOUT...

cause that started the IT thing.. after knowing things and got really hurt..

things went frOm Bad TO AAOKAyY..

hmm..well lots of cRying and tHInkiNG...

that was the day i cried like HELL.compared to others i didnt stop even for awhile crying that day. it was haRd knowing smthing that day.

but what the hell, but its over now.

hmmm, what else.. PEOPLE SAW ME CRYING everywhere haahahahaahahahah

nkakahiya PRAMIS! ahahhah.

hahahaahahahahahahahahahhahhahahahhaha

okay..cried while havin the test in pinoi and in english. FUNNEH! ahahahah.

etoh medjo detalyado na kwnto on that lunch going to uwian..

--after OUR talk, i tried to force myself and try to hold my tears but stil i cant ehh ahhaha. it was not a succes at all ahahha i FAILED in HOLDING it BACK.

i was in FOR2 na kea i Really tried to PULL myself together but then i saw celina, i just broke down.heheheh nkakahiya tlga ako then people were looking na and some were asking and wondering..hmm.. i went to look for walker kc she was the one i was talking to pertaining to the current situation. i broke down in tina's arms and waw gulat mode ehh si aika tinanong kung bkt ako umiiyak.eheheheh SHOCKING tlga..

afteeer that pinoi na, i often wen to the cr kc i really cant hold it in.super just wanna cry at that point heheehe..skt ehh..

then one incident in the CR si LOU nasa CR dn hehehe

pati si SHAYNE nakita ako na UMIIYAK sa CR :) hehe

kala ko meh kawala na ko sa mga tao ahahah ehh MEH tao pala sa Cr nung mga panahon na yon :)

then composed myself again kc meh quiz na but after or maybe kalahati ng quiz ata napaisip nnman ako then iyak nnmn ahahhaha :))

ewn tears were just flowing down rapidly, while composing myself tears were also falling kea lang wlang sound at hndi ako masyado nagsasalita.

grabe ako? hndi nagsslita ?! shocking nga ehh db?

ENGLISH ganun din iyak p dn :)heheheh.

uwian same..bus knti namen nun ehh.hehehehheheh meh freedom sa Upuan:P

i cried while in an ipod moment.

heheh THanks sa DONATOR ko ng IPOD nun na

2ndyR.heheheh

PASSENGER SEAT ANG cURRENT listeningko nung todo breakdown n ko and ung song na UNBELIEVEABLE ni craig daBId.heeheheheh

megan was fanning me kc i was really crying hahah nakakhiya tlga ako :)
well the tears dndt stop there.

got home then went straight to bed and cried i was alone for a couple of minutes then father came and odered me to do my HW's so i went to the comp and YM.

where in tantanananananannan WALKER and JHEI were there! WELL ROEMA alsO!

thanks tlgA! hehehehe..:P LOVE YAH !

sobrang naglabas ako keh WALKER and ROEMA ahaha bahagya lang keh jhei kc d p nya msyado alam mga nangyayare:) EHEHHEHEH..

then i ate dinner pero 3 subo lang then threw out the rest of the food.alam ko bad un! ok? sorry.

hmm..the nxt thing was jhei went offline.so i asked walker to txt jhei to KOL my hause..so jhei called and we talked..super iyak and pnapatwa nya ko eheheh.. hanggang 1Am un heheeh sHOcking NGA ehh ako dw HOLDER ng RECORD sa TELELPONO nya:P kc ako lang dw nakausap nya ng hanggang madaling aRAW bEHH mainggit na mga maiingit ahaha;P

jhei happy satin EVERYDAy hheeheh

(O.O)

hmm...what nakatulog ata ako nung mga 2aM na then ginicng ni MOMmy ng 6AM heheh kc pnta kame lourdes church and nakakdisappoint kc d ko akalain pati paggicng at pagligo ko naiiyak ako :) HEHEHEH then ano date nung db? ehheh 05 wla lang :) heheheh.. hmmm.. so pati sa JEEP and sa pinakaharap ng simbahan ng LOURDEs kung saan dpat ang naka UPO eh ung mga nagkokolekta ng mga pera ehh dun kame umupo ng mom ko kc sbe nya ehh aun.:) hehehe sunod naman ako :)EHHEHEHEH

then i we went ahahah :)) nttwa ako kc naman ehh.. pati sa HOMILY umiiyak ako eheheh sbe ko n lang keh mom nattmaan ako dun keh FATHER ehehh :)) aun.tpos ung katabe ko sa simbahan wla sa TONO hahah :)) lgeng a KEY hiGHER sha :) heheheh nkkahya then d ko napglan ung tawa ko mejo napalakas then tingin si FATHR and then i bowed my head na aahahaha :)) kakahya tlga! eheeheheh hmmmmmmmmm.. nu p b hmmm. NADISAAPPOINt ako kc kea lang nmn ako sumama keh mom nun ehh kc sbe nya after dw pnta kame SM snLAzaRo ehh d natuloy EPALOGs peo oks n lang dn :) heheheh..ewan pero ka disaapoint tlga un soBRA..heheeh..

what else ;) i went home and a text came from SOMEONE.so aun..nagkaPLANO then NATULOY ungPLANO so aun NAGKASAMA kme s TRINOMA.

nanuuod ng KUNGFU PANDA sa WAKAS! hehehe

well before the GOOD part of that day nung una kameng mkita nakakaAWKWARD wla lang :P sobrang hmm..hiyang hiya aT KABADO akO ok?HAHAAHH KNABAHAN AT KNAKABAHAN pa dn ako UP TILL NOw sa knya! hahhhaahhah :)) WEIRD but TRUE.

well we bought the tickets and then we went inside the movie house 2 of trinoma ;)

then ganda MOVIE heheh :)) GNDA mga BANAT eheheh

5 nga ung ORIGINAL na WARRIORS ehh hehehe

then mga lines na mggnda sa MOVIE

"dont give uP"

"believe"

"there are no ACCIDENTS"

"nothing is an ACCIDENT"

nu p b?ghmmmmm..

eheheh

weLL MOVIE un dB? soo what do u THink HAPPEN? usually aNo B? date ata un ehh then mOVIE's heheheh BAHALA NA:P sECRet shhhh ahahahah BEH!

uii ano kea iniicip nila!? eheheh CHARING

after that meh nangyare sa CR secret na un and hndi sha BASTOS ok? haahah:)) utak nyo kc ehh bsta CR gREeen agaD asuss! KEO ahHH! ahahahh :))

(0.0)

hmm lam nyo pati trinoma momments ko nung 05 IYAK p dn HEHEHEH :)) la lang :) adiik ehh.

sha dn ehh UMIYAK BAD! eheheh :) GAYA GAYA!

hmm the night turn to morning then sunday came hahaha :))

ok na halos ang LAHAT halos palang NMAN.

hmm VANITY ng 05 tao lang ang nangyRe sa PTA hehheeheheh

hmm.. ako si maMEL si WALKER si BEiiYaa at si KAT. aun

05 kame :)

then things went frOM a LOT of TEARs to SWEET sWEEt things;)
iloveyou was one em and yes MHINE im URS ALL urs

and MHINE is MHINE all MHINE

FINALLY MHINE is MHINEs

then today is MONDAY

flagceremony mejo natawa na nainis na Naiyak na ewan superh kabado ako kaninang umaga SUPER :)

db tina? walker? super KABADO!! eheheheh

first PERIOD was HOMEROOM and PE waW

pitness test was WOAHH ahaha

gravEH tlga RECESs i was with carixa aun kabrkaada ng pamangkin ko :Phehehe

then after recess pe ulit then walker told me na she was crying daw so malamang naiyak na ko ulit :( aii nako super iyak nnman ehh..

pero NOT MUCH ehehh mejo naLUha LUHa lang nATAWa at naALIw duns a BUHAT na TEST kc si niNIBeth EHH!!

heehh

binuhat ko si ninibeth hehe BIGAT so i tried once more i sHouted "ARIGATO GOZAIMAS" so nabuhat ko sha ahaha :)) tapos isa pang TRY and sbe ko naman "KANSAHAMNIDA"d ko sha nabuhat ahahah ang EXPLANATION lang nmn nun ehh JAPANNESE KC GMET KONG UNA KEA malamang INTINDI nya eheheh UNG susunoD KOREAN kea HNDi nyaINTINDI ehehh :)) lablab lablab kULIT ko KULITLITLITLT

next was math was WTF? kea next topic n lang :) laboo ehh meh quiz pa TOMoWOW.aiist

next is RELIGIION..SIR DM!! woooooooo..wla lang;P tapos na si WALKER sa RELIGION :P

hmmmm

lunch came, i gave her smthing haha PANGET gawa ko PASENSHA d ako ARTISTIC:PCoURTEsypa n WALKER ung lettering.

heheheh

lunch NA!!woo umiyak ako keh DADi CARAko! WAAA AHAHAH :)) super iyak ako then dumating sha WTh MOmMEh TJ then aun OK na uLIT ko :P TPS GUTOM N GUTOM ako nun SOBRA kea aun wla lang:) TUMTUMTUM

pinoi.eng the same.antok and HYPER dahil s EXTRA JOSH eheheh este EXTRA JOSS

heheehh..sci.lab NA HOTSEAT ako ni JACKY and JUBS! eheheh

nag HANGMAN kame :) aun :P adik lam ko n kung pano laruin ang HANGMAN ehheh SLOW ko ehh no? hhehheheh sORY

heheheh

then uwian GULAT ako sa mga nlman ko aun!
hmm UN lan NO COMMENT

then..

katext ko sha hanggat sa MAKAUWE SHA>.<

then..

NOW KAUSAP ko sha :)

iloveyoumHiNe

imFiNNalLY urS and UR MhHINneE

ilOooVEEEeyyOUU

muah HUGS

fInaLLY our TIMee IS HERE

and its NOW

so LET us BEGIn this LIFE of OURs

TOGETHER and HAPPILY NOW

lOVEyou I KNOW uR READIN thiS;P

"imURS"

----

SPECIAL THANKS SA LAHAT ng NAGHELP aT KUMALMA skn :P

si WALKER

si JHEI

si ROEMA

si TINA

si GOD

si AKO

at IKAW

THANK YOU

ILOOVEYYOOUU

muah

mHINE

here i am once again...

2008-07-04T08:22:00.000-07:00

hmm..what else is there to say? ive got nothing to say..

for those who kept on asking why the hell i keep crying well simple as this

im not ready to share the reason why and i wont do it here in this way a blog way.

but an overview of the problem/s

1. im disappointed

2. im stupid

3. im really really stupid

4. im really really sick

achiee.lou.

sorry

walker.jhei.roema

thanks!

I need to feel your hands all over me I need to feel you kissing me I need to feel you holding me I need to feel your touch Cause I miss your love so much And I can't keep on living this way I need you here with me

...

Because my world is nothin', without you Now I don't know what to do, with myself.

...

I would've given you anything Just to make you happy Just to hear you say, that you love me one last time I'd go to hell and back over and over again Just to prove to you how much I need you here There is nothing that I wouldn't do I'd cry for you I'd lie for you..

I would die for you, yes I will I would rather give up my life Than to see tears in your eyes I can't stand to see you cry .

...

I just don't know what to do with myself I cant stand looking at those pictures on my shelf Knowing it was just one week ago, i stood there and took that picture There just one thing that I wanna know Why would God want to hurt me so bad, Does He know how much it hurts to be missing you Baby Im missing you .

...

I love you

...

oh God damn it I love you Why did he take you away... from me Cause I love you so... I miss you so much baby I just can't go on baby

...

--its all for now--

(//.+)

--im still here--

i wont LEAVE

as i said TODAY

iLOVEYOU

im HERE TO STAY

ONE MORE CHANCE

for the sake of our

LOVE

one more chance cause i

cant give you up

ILOVEYOU

thats all im holding on to

and that

AS WE KISSED

it meant YOU

LOVED ME TOO

the same way that

i lOVE YOU

crap

thats all

for now

im stunewpidized

back to blogger

2008-06-29T20:19:00.000-07:00

hmmmmmmm.. i am not new here but i still dont know what to say. well today was ok nothing special at all.i wanna cry but i know it wont help anything.it wont do anything good and it will only cause chaos. iwanna forget somethings.i wanna just stop thinking be numb for a few hours and just breathe. i just cant help on thinking bout alot of things and im afraid of things alot of things.
i was once an emo a hardcore freakin emo.im pass that stage already, well so i thought i was. i was thinking about trying to cut myself to see whats gonna happen well i just though of it nothing more. i didnt do anythin at all. i didnt do its quiet shocking but i stop myself from damaging my skin.

.mind you reader who ever u are skin is essential to ones self. hmm these things comes to mind maybe twice a week only.

not because things are REALLY bad and CHAOTIC but its actually beginning to be in one way or another.

i keep on thinking to myself asking how did i get here?

analyzing what has happened recently. bad things and good things happens for reasons.

i kept things to myself up until now sharing once more my thoughts and all.all these changes only exists or points to one thing

"SURVIVAL"

i hate change because i lose things i value in life. but as i analyze things i guess we need change after all.

to be able to grow , to get to the point that we know who we are and why we're doin' the things we are doin'.

When ur heart is troubled all following actions of the body and/or the functions of the body maybe altered in many ways than one just to sooth the comfort that the heart yearns for. ive met a couple of people over the years and loved them all deeply specially some people who captured my heart and

broke by chance meaning to say ladies and gentlemen they are not the ones for me. so if yah got ur heart squished and got into a very bad splat no worries people their might be someone far more better than the previous one even if yah still love the person.

But as time fly's things happen and people whom ive met changed and i guess its ok it sorta happen's to people right?..

well the love of some people changed as well and that got my mind all screwd up but im fine now its all tightend up again.

but i know i wont be able to feel that way for someone and respect for myself. because when (i hope UR readin this) you loved me i believed in myself that there is somthing good inside of me.i must have done something right, i met you didnt i?

but since u changed ur happier they all say and thats what want for u, happiness.

im happy as long as you are and i miss you no doubt. i dont know how to make things right but all i know is that next time if god will allow another chance ill know how to treat and love you right. hoping he and u would give me another shot. all these sounds corny and cheap but what the hell i am already in to deep.

well my moms begging me to sleep already. its been 3-4 days straight that i havent slept in the right order. sorry viewers/readers what i just said was nonsensical and confusing . i am a chatterbox and my thought just keep on flowing like a river although sometimes my river of thoughts has its dry seasons ;)

thats all

my penny's for a thought

for today.

take care and thanks for reading

godbless